The Next Stage

Today I am starting the process of packing my life away, again, into boxes to create a new home for at least a year in my young existence. It is very exciting and fun but at the same moment, I feel myself transforming into a six year old who can not comprehend the meaning of change.

Having to throw away things that I once used to treasure seems unsettling to me. Old photographs that you find in the corner of a dusty desk drawer. Something that you may have looked at everyday for a year and smiled and yet now holds only memories hidden away to be forgotten. Change can be difficult, but I am doing my absolute best to embrace it. To spread my arms out wide and free fall into what life has in store for me next. But, if I'm being completely honest with myself, sometimes, you just want to mourn some of the things you may have lost. An old boyfriend, a dog, a friend, even a pair of jeans that got too worn and torn to be seen in public. No matter what it is, I feel that taking the time to let go of whatever it is you have grown past is so critically important to move on and into the future fully.

So, before I start taping up all those boxes and begin carrying them to the moving truck, I think I'll just sit and cherish my old trinkets and memories for a few more minutes until I throw them away and move on to the next stage where there are new loves and memories ready to open up before me like a blossoming flower in the sunlight of a new day.

For No Reason At All

Sometimes I just sit and stare out my window. It is the most beautiful day outside. The warm breeze swaying through the evergreen trees. I just can't help but smile. I feel so calm and at peace for no explanation, other than the loveliness of the day is bringing me some sort of innate happiness. I am content.

I am content to just be me, myself, for at least a moment. To understand that some days I am on this earth not to work, or run, or be busy, but to appreciate what is surrounding me. The world that lies right in my fingertips and all I have to do is grasp it. Reach out and claim what is rightfully.... everyones.

I understand that people have "property" but there are so many places around the world that are meant for everyone. Whether it is a beautiful mountain, or simple a tree. There are beautiful things all around us that were not made, or planned, they just are. Nature is a gift for us each and everyday. Why not take the time, just a moment, and appreciate all that we have. All that was given to us, for no reason at all.

Take a minute...

The saying goes, "When life gives you lemons, make lemonade." Well i have a few lemons in my life that are really not conducive to what I want to be doing. When your spirit is saying, "I need to have fun and take a break!" but your calender is saying, "you have 15 more things to go" I am kind of at a loss of what I should do.

At that point, I decide to just stop. Sit in the middle of my path (my life) and just be still. I know there are things to get done and I know what I really want to do, but there are just times you need to sit down on the ground, on my dirt path that leads to who knows and just breathe. Just feel the breeze and smell the sweet air and stop. It brings me back down to reality and helps me think clearly again.

In this day and age, we all get caught up in moving too quickly. Sometimes it's just nice to slow down and experience life, rather than let it rush right past you. The moments that we remember, the really special ones, are the ones where everything slowed down, if only for a second, so that we could taste, touch, hear, or feel everything about that one sliver in time. Think if we tried to do that once everyday. Just stopped to smell a freshly bloomed rose, or looked up to the brilliant blue sky and let the sun radiate down on your skin. To actually feel its warmth seep into you and make you feel alive. We would all live so much more fully and actually be content.

To enjoy the small intangible things, is to live life how it was meant to be lived... Start today. I know I am.

Welcome to my View on Life

Wow! So much has been going on in my life. I can't even believe how fast life is moving. It felt like yesterday I was starting high school and now I am half way through college. People always tell you that life goes by quickly, but you never realize it until it starts speeding past. I want nothing more now, than to live my life fully. I just want to be in my body and present for every part of life. Even for the difficult parts. I am going through some tough times right now, but it is still a huge part of life. Going through the rough times is just as important as having a blast and loving everything. You should appreciate and learn from every part of your life. It is difficult but I am going to do my absolute best now. When I am gone, I want people to remember me and think that I really enjoyed life. How it is meant to be loved... There is a reason for everything, and if I'm supposed to have a really crappy day and be rejected by this or that, then it's supposed to happen. I don't mean that you shouldn't try and do your best on everything, but I do believe that no one is perfect and we are all going to make mistakes. Some of my biggest mistakes have helped me learn so much and change my life for the better.

Anyway, this is my new official blog! I hope that there is at least one person who is interested in what I have to say and if not, oh well. Haha. Life's too short to worry about the little things. I will be updating as much as I can. Thanks a ton for reading... I'll be back with random insight and fun ramblings soon.

-Sierra