Friday, June 8, 2012

I Had No Choice


Sweetest to the touch
kindest to the taste
your lovely thoughts
keep my mind a daze

Unbelievable warmth
your laugh I do miss
only days apart
my heart whispers of bliss

My match once lost
found in life a new
I have no choice
but to love you



Friday, June 1, 2012

This ride...



Moving away from one part of your life is challenging. It throws you into a whirlwind of questions and confusion, not knowing if you are going the right or wrong way.

Graduating means diplomas, congratulations and moving into the real world, or back into your parents house. For me, that is one of the most challenging things in the world to do. They are very supportive, helpful, take care of me, give me food, and love me, so why should I feel so out of place? Possibly because I have tasted a bit of freedom and am reluctant to let it go again. I appreciate everything my family gives me but I want more than anything to start a life for myself... Only problem is that my goals and aspirations are a bit lofty when it comes to receiving enough money to be able to afford a place on my own right now.

So this is what life is like? Working feverishly to get what you want? It's exciting, exhilarating, but also boring and redundant. Life is a hypocrite, yet I'm still in love with it.

I need to begin focusing on the little, tiny, minuscule moments that are filled with so much light and happiness that I can't breathe from all the laughter. I need to trust my best friend and boyfriend when he tells me he loves me and that I'll make it though. I need to accept the transition, because let's face it, accepting the transition of life is the fastest way to get to the next mountain top.

In the past I have said life is a roller coaster but I was wrong... Life is a theme park! And you have to go on every single ride, whether or not it makes you sick to your stomach or giggle with excitement. I just happen to be on the teacups at the moment, fun yet disorienting.  At least I'm staring at someone I love across the spinning mess of a backdrop, and he's perfectly in focus, let's focus on that.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Karma's A...





Why is it that when you are fighting with every breath to make your life a successful and fulfilling one, trying to paddle against the normal harsh winds of hard work, that people feel the need to say mean or judgmental things to you just to make you feel like giving up? Especially people whom you once thought that you could trust, that you let into your world, hoping that they would treat you with respect and dignity that you want to show them, but that they clearly do not deserve.

People judge each other so harshly that they cannot possibly see what may truly be going on. They go into situations with preconceived notions and spit in each other’s faces with out even understanding that the person they are spitting at has been the person rooting for them the entire time.

In the world today, we have to work five times as hard to try and get the life that we want, and if you have high goals, then that means you have to work twenty times as hard. So in that case, you think people might cut you a break every once in a while. Nope, if you aren’t around for them every second of every day then that must mean you are blowing them off right? You just don’t care enough to make an appearance in there life because you have SO much time on your hands you just can’t get up off the couch? Wrong. 

What if by chance, the world was a crazy place and everyone had to do what ever they could to possibly have the opportunity to make it and be successful? Oh wait… That is how the world is.

Anyways, my whole ranting and annoying chatter is about to end, but I would like to share a few helpful words to everyone in the world, including myself.

           
BE NICER.
Be kinder, gentler, and more understanding of the people around you because you honestly have absolutely no idea what they are going through and spitting in their face or saying hateful or judgmental words will not only hurt them, but yourself as well.

To quote someone out there, “karma’s a b****,” so if maybe this time, you give someone a break, or ask what might be the reason they are doing what they are doing… You may save yourself some heartache in the future. 

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Oil paintings


My glasses relax next to me
Everything begins to blend together
The trees, now oil paintings

The thoughts of you
Always a constant reminder
Words are never enough

I open my mouth to speak
But nothing could surmise the love
I have felt for you
Since the beginning