Moving away from one part of your life is challenging. It throws you into a whirlwind of questions and confusion, not knowing if you are going the right or wrong way.
Graduating means diplomas, congratulations and moving into the real world, or back into your parents house. For me, that is one of the most challenging things in the world to do. They are very supportive, helpful, take care of me, give me food, and love me, so why should I feel so out of place? Possibly because I have tasted a bit of freedom and am reluctant to let it go again. I appreciate everything my family gives me but I want more than anything to start a life for myself... Only problem is that my goals and aspirations are a bit lofty when it comes to receiving enough money to be able to afford a place on my own right now.
So this is what life is like? Working feverishly to get what you want? It's exciting, exhilarating, but also boring and redundant. Life is a hypocrite, yet I'm still in love with it.
I need to begin focusing on the little, tiny, minuscule moments that are filled with so much light and happiness that I can't breathe from all the laughter. I need to trust my best friend and boyfriend when he tells me he loves me and that I'll make it though. I need to accept the transition, because let's face it, accepting the transition of life is the fastest way to get to the next mountain top.
In the past I have said life is a roller coaster but I was wrong... Life is a theme park! And you have to go on every single ride, whether or not it makes you sick to your stomach or giggle with excitement. I just happen to be on the teacups at the moment, fun yet disorienting. At least I'm staring at someone I love across the spinning mess of a backdrop, and he's perfectly in focus, let's focus on that.
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