Rearranging my Life

Today was an interesting day. After months and months of complaining about being back in my childhood room after living the life of somewhat freedom in college, I decided to change everything around, clean up and make it feel more like the new me, the post college me and not the 16 year old girl who once cried herself to sleep hoping to understand herself and annoying unstoppable imagination one day. I threw away countless trinkets and trash that once meant something to me and made new space for my "new" self and my new things in my old yet decently sized room.

It was amazing, through the entire process I was feeling melancholy and depressed. Sifting through everything, I thought there was no way in hell that I was going to feel better about this space and this transition of a life that I'm in right now.

Miraculously enough.... after the dust cleared and my room was no longer the tornado that it was in the beginning of the afternoon; I felt a sense of calm, a sense of control and excitement. I sat back in my IKEA office chair, put my feet up and watched Forgetting Sarah Marshell on my abnormally small tv.

And for the first time in about 6 months, I felt free, by myself, in this little space that had trapped me for so many years of my life. I felt satisfied, like I had finally taken control of my life! Now, the Devil Wears Prada is on my tiny tv and I am still as content.

This all may seem like a pointless and strange rambling, but I swear it has a purpose.

Everyone goes through transitions in their life where everything seems to be wrong, where they can't find themselves, and where they want to be at a better place than where they are. But sometimes, where you are in a transition, is exactly where you're supposed to be because to be in a better place requires being content with being in the moment.

I know I always talk about being happy in the moment but maybe thats because its always been something I seem to lose sight of.. Well fortunately, I've seem to found my way back to the present again and I plan on holding on to that for as long as I can.